The Lonely Heart

11 - August - 2013

Thousands of angels do I face today.
But somehow I'm still searching every night and day,
And I cant find a girl worth talking to.

Alexey Titarenko

What is wrong with me?

All day long I search through the city to find an angel and when I do find such beauty, I would talk myself out of it. I let her go into the sea of faces thinking that it was better that way. I was probably disturbing her life if I ever find the courage to talk to her. I told myself she will be forgotten. And like a pathetic fool who falls in love with every female that show the slightest positive emotions of a small second stare from the beautiful Chinese jogger in the park to the smile of a wanderer at the bus station. I shrugged away thinking that I would only hurt them if any further interaction was made. How long must I keep lying to myself of my past? Those lost lover, those who left me, the broken hearts and the dead are the fate of my companions. All but a memory of sadness and sorrow that often shadow those great moments of happiness and joy. For with every laugh it bring greater pain to know that those of the past are no more. That those joy has ended like all things. The End is the fate of every single aspect of this universe. For in the end only can a new story begins. But for someone like me who has a wider understanding of the nature of Time, the past, present and future has a mix of wibbly wobbly mess. I'm reluctant to engage in any new birth of emotions. What is the point if it all always end?

Alexey Titarenko

Times like this, I always remember spying on Sigmund Freud whom wrote a great essay called 'On Transience' where he recalled a walk he had with the poet, Rilke. I remember seeing the poet weeping in the middle of the garden. I remember hearing Freud asking him on why such a display of sadness in such a magnificent settings. The poet told him that he couldnt get over the fact that all this beauty will one day decay. Everything dissolves into nothingness. The greatest existential bummer is Entropy. Time is Death's Hand.



Said I to myself. Why bother? But yet after a night of memory editing through the usage of cannabis and dream-filled sleep, my mind still echoes of her face. But why? Her brown leather satchel that enjoys the breeze of her heavy pace in the mildly crowded station. Searching for the bus that will take her to the desired destination. Her eyes so lost in its own beauty of her current predicaments ignorant to my unmasked stares. Her fine body covered with the denim indicates to me that she is not just that sweet of an angel and she might just give u a hell of a good kicking. This girl reminds me of a Mustang.

She is the kind of great beast of an ecstatic craftsmanship of a biological machinery masterpiece.
The sort of female that has the classic beauty of a wild American Stallion.
The sort of girl that fit perfectly with the Hell's Angels on the scorching highways.
The female that best at home on the back of a wheel cruising down the route 66 through the red valleys of a canyon.
A Sacajawea in denim smoking the shotgun out of her black lips.

Or maybe listening to The Doors and the new Arctic Monkeys albums made her so fucking unforgettable kind of ass.
Whatever she was, too bad Jim Morrisson or Alex Turner didnt possess this body of mine and do their magic of a soft whisper to set waterfalls onto those panties of hers.
Maybe in another alternate universe.

For the Vision of the Exception is all that I'm able to enjoy.

 Life photographer Bill Ray

A lovely skull sat upon a highway,
Setting his eyes on the rising sun.
A hungry bone walks on the midway,
While the white children are having fun,
On a morning after a fat pedophile has bribe your silence like a gift for his whores,
Doors, 
Snores,
Tipping toes upon the floors,
Hodor? Mordor?
An Evil bought at the stores,
Why is this a Jewish Folklore?
Gollum, Gollum,
I thought Gandalf had told them,
One must never obsess upon the Golden.
Raping the innocence,
without an evidence,
Faith in the Governance,
All this sounds like a Rebelliance?

Creating a New Word :- + Rebelliance : An Alliance of Rebels.

But no longer can I accept the Buddhist philosophy of detachment. It has freed me from my pain and sorrow but it has robbed me from my courage to grab some and fulfill my desire.

Maybe its time for me to adopt the Dylan Thomas Quote :

I will not go quietly into that Good Night,
But instead Rage against the dying of the light.

JACK KEROUAC's On the Road movie trailer :

The Rebirth of Hip Hop

HIP HOP IS DEAD. Or at least that how it seemed to look like in the mainstream media. Dont get me wrong there is still Rap but the content of their raps are the exact opposite of what the entire ether of Hip Hop used to be.

What is Hip Hop?

Hip Hop is a Sound Symbolisms of Rhythmatic Verbal Engineering of Word Manifestations.

It is the Poetry of the New Era. It is a harmonically corruption and alteration of words that is filled with the desire to transcend the isolated experience of One’s life journey and communicate the abstract and intangible emotions in short compilations of verses. Hip Hop or Rap, like Poetry is a Literary Art that uses the aesthetic and rhythmic qualities of Language and carries a deeper meaning in its verbalisation. Rap is the ultimate form of Phonaesthetics in our modern age.

Hip Hop first emerges into the culture of Humanity in the 1970s when the Black (African American) and Latino Youth in the East Coast of the United State of America was finding a new form of Musical Style to express their displeased with the Life in the concrete jungle of Bronx and Harlem, New York City. This genre of music is of course influenced by many other musical genres such as the Jamaican Reggae and Rock Steady that seems to become an anthem to the struggle of Black Resistance underneath the oppression of Western Society. Hip Hop was a method of letting out all the bottled up emotions and showcasing the true of the lifestyle and hardship of the poor folks in the Ghettos. Many other subcultures of Arts surface with Hip Hop such as the Street Art and Graffiti, DJ-ing, MC-ing, Beatboxing and of course Break Dancing. Hip Hop first got noticed by the mainstream Medias during the 80s with such tribes or gang, N.W.A, RUN DMC, Public Enemy and many more.

And of course the 90s, gave us the great Tupac Shakur, Wu Tang Clan, Notorious B.I.G, Public Enemy, The Pharcyde, Snoop Dogg (before he evolve to a Lion), Beastie Boys, A Tribe Called Quest and the list goes on and on and on.... It is considered by many as the Golden Age of Hip Hop. (Mid 80s-Early 90s).

So what happened????

Hip Hop has always been accompanied by controversial issues for its usage of vulgar words and depictions of violence. At first the public and the mainstream medias are opposed to the Hip Hop culture but as soon as they realized that there is no way of stopping an amazing beat, they decided to adopt it into their system with selective tracks. Of course we cant blame the medias for finding those censorship and bias air times but it seems to have slowly deteriorates the quality of the Hip Hop contents. During the 90s, many of the greats Hip Hop artistes were being shot and killed in the streets and the battles between the West Side and the East Side dividing the culture has made it easier for the Death of Real Hip Hop and the manipulations of mainstream media into commercializing this culture. Those artistes which survive the wars and the cold cases of the 90s can be seen either working with big companies into making big money to get out of their hardship life or defending the true spirit of Hip Hop and being pushed back to the underground. As we enter the 2000s, the culture of Hip Hop is so diversified and dissected that is seems to have loss the street credits. It is wasnt all that bad, the R&B genre have seemed to be adding some Soul into Hip Hop and allowing it to adapt. But by the 2010s, R&B too was on its way out as the culture of Electronic Music and Dubstep took center stage. As usual Hip Hop and Rap tries to adapt to the new genres but many would agreed that it isn't working out that well. It didnt exactly died but it has lost its roots and forgotten the ghetto it came from. From the Rebellious Spirit of the Streets, to Lost of Love R&B, to Gold Chains and Grills, to incoherent raps of auto-tuned cyborgs.

But of course there is always hope...Mos Def (now known as Yasiin Bey) is a great example of such...



Mainstream Hip Hop has become too glamorous and too high class to the point it doesn't represent the streets no more. Maybe it is time we stop taking the Streets to the Stage and bring the Stage to the Streets. Maybe its time for the rebirth of Drum and Bass Hip Hop. Maybe it is time for some Real Ghetto Music. You feel me?




It is time for the new generation of Rap.. It is time for the Reboot, the Rebirth of HIP HOP!!

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheCypherEffect

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheOrganizedThreat

There is too many new young Hip Hop artistes, you can find them either on the Cypher Effects or the Organized Threat channel on Youtube but since this is about the rebirth, I thought perhaps we focus on a few artistes mostly female Hip Hop because who doesn't love a chick that can rap? Who is better to give birth to the new Hip Hop than those young mothers of the concrete jungle? Now I know these artistes are mostly from the West Coast but since the birth of Hip Hop is from the East Coast, then it seemed almost perfect that the rebirth would be from the opposite side...That doesnt mean there isnt a movement going on in the East just I am more familiar with the West...

                                         GAVLYN

Biography

The 23-year-old L.A.-based rapper GAVLYN has been rapping since 2006.

She`s a member of the Movement Organized Threat and Broken Complex which supports artists on an international scale and aims to give Hip Hop music a fresh, poetic and timeless touch.

GAVLYN`s music is inspired by Old School, 70s Funk and 60's music. Yet, despite her devotion to Hip Hop, it`s not her only source of music. She`s also fond of Rock, Drum & Bass ,House Music and Jungle Music.
Cit: “It`s important for the music to be open-minded and not to limit oneself “.. GAVLYN is one-of-a-kind. Even if her Beats sound like fresh from the 90s, her new album is interspersed with modern accents.

Her unique voice, her authentic and direct air, her diverse Flows and her exquisite Beats make her a real treat and a much wanted artist in the Rap crowd. Her album From the Art was released in October 2012 by L.A. label Broken Complex and since then has been on the road to success. The song What I Do has been played 3.7 million times on YouTube so far.



After having performed exclusively in L.A. things took a dramatic turn when, at the start of 2013, GAVLYN set out to conquer Europe. By now a whole lot of fans all over Europe have rejoiced in her shows!



Her third album, Modest Confidence she's taking a different approach in baby steps with a whole new flow and not so much boom bap only a little ;) peppered with contributions by producers from all over the world, will be released by the end of 2013. Her refined rhymes give a hint at her personal development and show a new face of the young artist.

FACEBOOK : https://www.facebook.com/GAVLYNMUSIC

Band interests

www.soundcloud.com/gavlyn
www.youtube.com/gavlyngavlyn


MY OPINION : She is the ultimate embodiment of feminism power with a proper lady-like manner and yet ghetto it all out with her wordplay. Her physical beauty is an amplification of her persona. Her ether is pure and lovely.

                               

               KLASSY

       I LA LA LOVE HIP HOP :D


Klassy is a 18 years old (2014) Filipino girl raised in the Los Angeles, California who has a great passion for Hip Hop and it seems to be working for her and for the Culture.

MY OPINION : She has the happy go-lucky persona which goes perfectly with the up beats. Her curves are as smooth as her words and yes she was underage but not anymore. Hahaha...  Nevertheless she can pull off a darker sound..

                                 BLEEZIE

There isnt much information on Bleezie biography, like seriously this is her Facebook info :

https://www.facebook.com/BleezieDub7

https://soundcloud.com/bleeziedub7

About

you's a bitch if you hating on my houston hits. -spm

Biography

BLEEZIE BLAZÉ.

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Toro y Moi

Basic info

Joined Facebook	22/08/2013
Genre	hiphop
Current Location	Houston, Texas

Contact info

Booking agent	shit nigga i wish i had a manager lol

All I know about her is that she is Hispanic and she seems to rolling with the HideandSeekZoo crew...
 And of course she is very beautiful with quite a rude mouth...

She is also found chilling with The Cypher Effect circle...




MY OPINION : She a Rebel Scum and I love it. A persona of fuck you and who the fuck cares about what people thinks. She aint afraid to be herself even though it may seems slutty or unladylike, it is her true voice in her dark words. And of course her beauty makes my mind dreaming of a Latino night with some herbal healing.

                 Miss Char

https://soundcloud.com/charmander-4
https://www.facebook.com/CHAR86TRIBE
http://www.youtube.com/user/CHAR86TRIBE


Not much info from her as well...

MY OPINION : She is doesnt have much videos or songs but from her Cypher Effect performance I can say that she is building up a persona that wish to speak the true state of reality. And she has an amazing voice that with practice and further developments will make it unique.

Now, I'm certain there is more amazing rapper and Hip Hop artistes from the West Side and certainly there is a lot more from the East Side of USA. But I cant list them all down. Hope these girls are enough for now to remind you that Hip Hop is still alive and well. If you're not convinced perhaps these guys will.

      POETIC DEATH a.k.a VON POE VII

Description

After the third century a new breed of being began evolving its way into the gene pool, demons. Cursed not only with the shell of those that came before them, but also with the inability to walk under the sunlight for long periods of time. There was one amongst many who appeared unaffected by physical pains of the flesh dwelling amongst the wolves. His name was Poetic Death, his mission was misery.

         OFFICIAL POETIC DEATH / VON POE VII:
        CEO OF ORGANIZED THREAT
      www.VonPoeVii.com / www.OrganizedThreat.com
       FOR ARTIST BOOKING EMAIL: VonPoeVii@Gmail.com

Gavlyn and Poetic Death

MY OPINION : His wordplay is genius to mix the street smart and intellectual phrases. His persona is so perfect, maybe because I can relate to it the most. And the fact that he and Gavlyn are like brother and sister makes it all the more irresistible to love him.

 

            

                     PHORA

Phora was born and raised in the city of Anaheim,CA, where he began to pursue rap at seven years of age after recording his first track with his Father. Growing up, Phora was strongly influenced by both his father and graffiti to make music.  Phora is currently dominating the west coast Hip Hop scene dropping quality music for the public and continuing to grow his massive following.  about a year ago we were able to interview him link allowing everyone fans to get to now him on a personal level and understand what he is doing for Hip Hop.  2013 is Phora’s year and personally I don’t see anything that will get in his way……………… UndergroundHipHopBLOG.com



Facebook : https://www.facebook.com/PhoraOne
Twitter and Instagram : @PHORAONE 

For booking & contact, email : thephoraone@yahoo.com

Official Website : http://phoraclothing.bigcartel.com/

MY OPINION : His tune is catchy and his words are relatable. He still a kid but arent we all? Its a great pleasure to just listen to him speaking his reality but at times it is a bit cocky, yet he has the rights to be. He is talented and his style is easily commercialized. As long he stay true to his street persona, he will have nothing to worry about and there will be no obstacle too big for him and his connections to overcome.

Honorable Mentions :
 Eskupe (DJ)

The future looks bright for these kids and for Hip Hop...Yes there is still disagreement among each other but I hope they will never start another war and destroy the very thing they love...These new young Hip Hop artistes should be recognized for they are a Threat to the Mainstream media...They are organized enough to bring a whole new revolution for the new generation...

PEACE OUT ~

Dub FX & Stamina MC 'Only Human' Lyrics

'Only Human'

A fair few people (mainly on YouTube) have been asking for the lyrics that feature in the Rooftop Sessions video I did with Dub FX in May. Well, for all you rhyme-enthusiasts or speakers of other languages, here they are!

Should you need reminding as to the actual video itself, it can be found here:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STf7B33yEHw

I’m just a normal guy, with things to do before I die

Don’t always know the how or the why

Saw that I seemed to have a mind in doubt

So now I do what I can before my time is out

I've gotta do whatever helps my name

If I sleep on opportunities I've only got myself to blame

I felt for healthy change, left everybody else the same

All hell bent on the wealth and fame

I’ve always- seen things through different eyes

This kid got wise, refused to be stigmatised

If only you knew, you might get a big surprise

By the amount of people still getting gigs from lies

Of various kinds, these are precarious times

So I gather my thoughts, starting to prepare them as rhymes

So I can stay aware of the signs that confront me

‘Cos if it ain’t real I neither care or have time, to put it bluntly.

I’m just getting across my POV

Speaking from the heart and representing me only

That’s the main thing I try to get through with speech

Get everything out in the open like a nudist beach

More than just what I might do this week; whatever’s true

Clever, new, unique – and setting fools on a losing streak

I’m hoping you notice, I need you to study this

That’s my main AIM, not a screen name on buddy lists

But every now and then I get it wrong – though my head is strong

I’d rather we get along than to get it on

There’s so many MCs people love to hate

So I try my hardest not to punch above my weight

My only intent is to sublimate – not to be the topic of forum drama

Or a pub debate

But if I have been let me scrub the slate

These Rooftop Sessions - Dub FX, it's time to put that dub to plate.

What it comes down to, is I’m just another junglist kid

That basically had a dream

And over time what I’ve found true is I’d rather have my voice in your ear

Than my face in a magazine – publicity ain’t really me

Though I can flow superb if the time’s right

I really reckon I’m allergic to limelight

Some believe it’s wrong – but I only feel the heat is on

When the beat is gone

And the music stops – Boss, please don’t compare me to other MCs

‘Cos most of them dudes is lost

I'm well aware what involvement in this music costs

And how a little underground heat can soon be frost - gosh!

Some people think it’s all showbiz

I tell ‘em I’m 32 and still I’ve got no mortgage and no kids

And some weekends I’ll do no gigs

I wish you’d seen the looks that I’ve gotten, 'cos they really think that I’m so BIG

Read my rider and you’ll think “What is this raas?!

“Where’s all the champagne, the five stars, the business class?!”

All of that would just get dismissed fast; if you don’t believe me

My request is to kiss this arse

I spit this harsh 'cos you don’t know the depth of the scheme

How I repped for my team when I stepped on the scene

See, my life's nothing like what you expect

So get your specs checked if you think this lifestyle is 'jet set'

And yet, all I do is fret - what's my next step?

I'm stressed, working up a sweat, looking desperate

Okay, that's not true but I'm still concerned

I've made progress but I've got a lot of skills to learn

Like how to sing a subtle melody about my inner struggle

Internal conflicts that still get me in a muddle

Limited only by the force of my will

I'm slowly learning how to tap into the source of my skill.

I’m only human, slowly finding my way

Reminded each day of reasons for the lines that I say

I’m only human, someone who makes mistakes

I've had my fair share of mishaps and great escapes

I’m only human, tryna provide the stuff that you need

I’m not a machine, I promise if you cut me I’ll bleed

So stop assuming you get less than high quality

That's got me fuming, and not someone that I wanna be.

Peace. •S•